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Sometimes I spend hours and hours sitting in my room brainstorming on how to make a difference. At this stage in my life I have been presented with several opportunities to serve the poor and marginalized yet I feel empty. I oftentimes find myself daydreaming about a world free of AIDS or cancer then I am struck with reality after hearing a glass break in the kitchen or the loud siren of a never-resting ambulance. I have been taught to believe I can change the world but I still find it quite improbable. I am currently doing research on HIV/AIDS and its ties with poverty in Mexico. Truth of the matter is that Mexico is in fact doing pretty darn good at fighting AIDS. Then I think to myself, is my research useless? Today I felt enlightened by an article I read that said “We shall not finish until we reach ZERO.” What did it mean by zero? In my head, it meant zero new sprouts of HIV/AIDS, zero deaths related to AIV/AIDS but also ZERO discrimination to those already infected. The latter is, in fact, one of the most difficult things to acquire because of the social stigma associated with AIDS. AIDS used to be known as GRID, which stands for Gay-Related Immune Disease. Today, many people still think that only gay people can get AIDS. Although it has been more widespread that this disease can be obtained through several other means, it still isn’t enough. I came to the realization that if I cannot cure the people with HIV/AIDS, I can at least try to cure the people with ill minds who see infected persons as inferior. 

No consigo dormir.